i've been thinking and looking through stuff.. you know, some things just cannot happen. i mean there's just no way lah.. sad but. well, not exactly sad actually. alright enuff crap. looking forward to this week.

sometime i hate myself. when i do stupid things which i regret later. i will not again. wasted my whole morning. gotta get some work done now. it's gonna be a crazy week. trainings everyday. wow. not that i don't like it, just that it can get a bit tiring you know. i love playing! ok kinda excited now. train hard.

that was a good game. not as good as we potentially can be but still not bad. i mean i t was impt perhaps to get a win..whoa the run in the first half was nice. and we ended well too.. the middle part needs some improvement.. nonetheless was quite good. so, the team's settled. finally. though i don't fully agree with things. it's a painful process. one which could potentially harm the team. what with misunderstandings and un-understanding among ppl. yuck. anyhow, i know how being cut feels. trust me. it's that empty feeling, of like 'what? so that was all for nothing?'..i'm not trying to belittle anything here.. it's a sick feeling no one should go through. well, this is how it will always go.

that bit was quite entertaining.. new info huh...ln

i think perhaps right now i don't have too much confidence in myself..in most areas anyway. having screwed up my cts so badly.. i mean something i have a little confidence in ends up so disastrouly..man, i hate wasting time on the studpid additional tutorials.. hmm i'm not saying i'm good in any subject. it's just that it's really sian when you have so much work, and then you get more. it's pissing.

bball friendly on tmr against pjc. played against those guys before. lost badly last time. this time round it'll be very different. we've come a long way since. think we're much better players now. every one of us improved. not to say we're really good now, but we've definitely got more confidence now..what if the new players coming in we're stronger i expect. dunnoe what some ppl may think though. we've still got to be more united. nonetheless, looking forward to a great game tmr.

some things cannot be achieved. it's just sad. seen things too late. aiyah, some things are just not the perfect way. good day ppl.. or nite.

that was a first.

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of droping out of school
And leave this place
to never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep I can't forget you
nanana (...)
And I'd do anything for you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
but now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

screwed up chem like SHIT. 'screwed up' may be too mild a description. totally f---ed up. it's a big fall. too disgraced. well, the bigger test is how i react to this i guess..get back onto my feet soon. let this be a lesson to me. but i told mr lee i'll improve much for next common test. it's a promise maybe.

this year hasn't been kind to me. may this be a turning point.